Last Wednesday, July 1st, a package arrived for me from my friend Lean. It’s a beautiful package full of love and other little pretty things. But the prettiest of them all is my new love, Ayumu.

Ayumu (歩夢) means “walk towards dream.” Or so according to what I read somewhere online. Ayumu is a passport sized Midori Traveler’s Notebook that has a beautiful brown leather. It’s been with me for a few days now, and he’s already covered in scratches despite the fact that it came with a cloth cover. Although, according to Midori’s website, the more scratches the leather has, over time, the more beautiful it would be. So I’m very hopeful that it’s true. XD

Do you find it odd that I chose to have a traveler’s notebook even though I am an indoor type? I find it odd myself. Haha! But Ayumu was just the perfect of planner/notebook that I would want to take with me every single time. I plan on buying inserts and accessories for it soon, too. I’m targeting the 004 Zipper (passport size), first before everything else. Then I thought I would also want a 010 Kraft paper folder (passport size), too. But then I would probably just make one my own using card stacks or something.

I’ll post more about Ayumu, later, when I started filling it with things. 😀


The sky is crying
Washing away all your tears
For another day

A New Found Love

A new found love came
One beautiful afternoon
With so much promise

On My Own

When I first walked this long road,
It seemed to me it had no meaning.
As if I’m walking forever,
Very lonely and weary.

But on the way I found you,
Taking this long road too.
Then I felt quite happy,
Now that I found a company.

You took care of me,
Helped me stood up,
Wiped my every tear,
And hold me close when I’m cold.

You showed me me glimpse
Of what the world is too me.
You taught me well of what is proper and not.
And you taught me how to love.

By the time I understand
What you have been teaching me,
I just found you
Leaving me behind.

After all those times you’ve spent in me,
You just left me with the knowledge to go on.
But how can I? When you, who taught me,
Left without me knowing the reason why.

Now I realize,
You want me to learn it on my own.
All I can do now is to thank you
For all those things you’ve done for me.

I wrote this back in high school, when we were graduating. I wrote it for my best friend, Lanie. Eventually, we edited a whole part of it and only the first 6 lines were added into a song we made that we entered into a graduation song writing competition traditionally being held in our school. The finalized song was titled Last Memories.

Unfinished Song

Somebody told me,
You’re in love with someone else.
Somebody told me,
To forget you and everything.
I guess I should
‘Cause things are really that way.

Sometimes I ask myself,
“Do I really love you that much?”
And I always answered,
“I guess, I really do.”
And in these times I think
That love is really unfair.

Why do I love you?
I can’t explain.
I know you need her
‘Cause you love her that much
But where do I really belong?
Only as an acquaintance,
Not even a friend.

This poem was a part of my old compilation of poems I wrote back in second year high school. My friend Carol and I made it into a song, yes, complete with melody and all. We wanted to form some sort of a band back then so we tried writing love songs. But in the end, we weren’t able to finish it.