What is this? A "One-on-one Interview with Euri" article? No. It's just that people ask to much over my messengers that I decided to just blog it out to keep myself from repeating. If you have something to ask. Just ask away. And I'll answer them as truthfully. I am after all not a celebrity that I needed to hide anything. I'll add the things you ask below here and from Just Fucking Ask It.

Why are you an atheist?
(Note: This is my opinion and I don't care about yours). Because there are never gods in the first place. Gods only existed because people wanted them to exist because they feel the need for their existence. People throughout history felt the need of someone who could always answer those question that they can't find answers themselves. Thus, god was created to serve as an answer to everything. Eventually, they needed someone to serve as their guide. They used them as a justification for justice, morality and righteousness. They were served as a bunch of invisible friends who would always be there beside them. Someone they can trust whole-heartedly without complaining nor responding.

Why "never existed"?
You may see me. You may know me. You might even be talking to me right now. But, how sure are you that I really existed? I might just have been someone whom you just wanted to see. I might just have been someone you needed to talk to. It might just be that reality is playing a trick on you. And all that I am is an illusion and that in reality, I wasn't there.

Why Beyond Eternal?
Beyond Eternal means beyond forever - an unreachable distance, an unreachable time. It's the manifestation of those chains that binds me in this endless war.

What are the type of music you listen to?
My play list are mostly composed of rock, from heavy metal down to slow rock. But of course, Goth Doom is at the top of my list. But then, when I think of it, I listen to all kinds of music. I may not look like it, but I am fond of listening to Jazz and classics more than I listen to rock.

Why do you keep so many blogs?
Well, that's basically because it's necessary for me to. It's just like when I keep multiple written journals. I am too much to handle even for myself. If I can't handle them through blogs/journals, I would explode.

Do you have a boyfriend?
No. I'm single, I'm happy and I'm definitely not available.

What are your type of guy?
Let's see... Long haired, pierced, fair complexion, classy, non smoker, drinks but non-alcoholic, blunt, knows what he wants and gay.

We are all twisted in our own way but there are a few who are brave enough to show their true selves. And thus, the majority who are cowardly hiding inside their shelves referred to them as someone who is "not normal" even if deep iside they knew they were the same. The same goes that we, humans, are born to be sinful with full of malice, desire and greed. This is why humans are detestable and trust is just that something born out of falls hope. Even so, trust is that something you wanted to at least give to a few selected people to keep yourself from exploding and remain sane in this forsaken world. You shouldn't just give it to random people so you would avoid a few pains. But then again, pains and tears are what wakes us up from our dreams and constantly reminds us that we are alive and reality is such a ugly place to live in.

There was a time when someone asked me why I don't get jealous. All I did was remain silent and never replied. But you know, in fact, I do. Who doesn't, anyway? It's just that I do not want to trouble myself telling people that I am. Even if I do, they can't do anything for me anyway. Or maybe I was just making up this excuse to cover my abnormality. Where in reality, I'm a pretty possessive woman.

Most of the time, I don't want other people's attention. I hate it most when people notice me. But then, when it comes to people I care, I want them to stay with me always. I'm no better than a dog wagging it's tail wanting attention and wanting to be pet. I think, wanting love is just normal. But trying everything to keep a person beside you always had gone way beyond the line and it's quite pathetic. Yes, it is honest of me to say that I am indeed pathetic.

The one thing that I hate most hearing from someone are the words "I can't breathe" due to my own possessiveness. I always feel like being chained but then I, myself, am also doing the same. With this in thought, I grew scared. I'm terribly frightened that I would lose someone for holding that person too tight. So I always ended up doing the wrong thing and to other people aside from myself, it always seemed as if I left that person hanging in the dark. But actually, all I can do is to keep myself in a corner and hide from the light full of despair.

Sometimes, it keeps me wondering how long would I stay this way.

Friend: you're a stupid bitch
Euri: Thanks.
Friend: dammit
Friend: you're even proud?
Friend: wtf
Euri: You've known me for years and you just found that out now?
Friend: you should stop that
Euri: Stop what?
Friend: dont play dumb with me
Friend: heck
Friend: What're you going to do when you get fired because of that?
Euri: O_o
Euri: What the fuck?
Euri: You're so noisy.
Euri: You're not my mom, damn it.
Friend: i'll kill myself if i have a daughter like you.
Euri: Oh?
Euri: Is that why you love me so much?
Friend: you're so damn gay
Euri: Haha!
Euri: Does that mean, you do love me?
Euri: God, I'm traumatized.
Friend: gth
Friend: but seriously
Euri: Enough.
Friend: you should stop that.
Euri: I have the right to voice out my opinion in EVERY fucking way I wanted.
Euri: If they have something against it, I would want them to address it to me personally.
Friend: stubborn ass
Euri: ...
Friend: what about school?
Euri: I gave that up.
Friend: why?
Euri: I chickened out.
Friend: /;)
Euri: I wanted to take the course.
Euri: But I would have to resign.
Euri: I thought of this really well, you know.
Euri: If I resigned and went back to study, there wont be any assurance that I would be successful in that field.
Euri: Also, there wont be any assurance that I could get a job there.
Euri: Considering how many people needs a job these days, I am already lucky to get one.
Friend: but if you sticked there
Friend: it would be like giving up on your dream.
Friend: are you that stupid?
Euri: Yes. I am.
Friend: it can't be helped then
Friend: I hope someone would be brave enough to kick some sense into you
Friend: dumb ass

*sigh*

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For the sake of those who asked and will be asking, gth = go to hell.

Before we get to the main topic, Ems is having a free domain name hosting, LUV.PH. I think the domain name is cute. I want one too but I don't know what I'm gonna do with it, so maybe I'll grab one later. ;)

Oh yeah! This is one of the few times that I have something nice to blog about. This is hilarious (at least for me), so if you are a bit interested, you might read on. But, this might be a little offensive for some. So as usual, just get lost if you don't like it.

Last week, Yuga has been the talk of the blogging world for endorsing Auction.ph, ahem, he's paid pretty well, might I add. I told this to most of the people I know over YIM and MSN, and of course, I didn't mention how much. Duh, that's confidential. For those who knew Yuga, I got mostly "Wow!" as a reply. But for most of the people I know, surprisingly, I got a reply of "Who the heck is Yuga?" all of which said the same exact sentence that made me burst into an all afternoon laughter. And no, he is not a goth-doom vocalist nor is he is a j-rock superstar and definitely not a anime seiyuu, so don't even get to that idea. I know most of you don't give a damn, but you know, Yuga is a prominent being in the Philippine Blogosphere. At least, as far as I know, he is. That said, you better get your butt to his blog and stalk him a bit. You might even learn a thing or two or even be sprinkled with a few of his popularity or something.

There were quite a few pictures of Yuga at the office too. I'm advertising that if by chance, you have a crush on Yuga, you can talk me out of giving you a copy of his picture. But of course, bribing me is better since it would probably take me quite an effort to ask/steal his picture. The only picture I saw was the one with the four of them though (see Yuga's post for reference). Yes, that one with (from the left) that dude from Ortigas, on which I don't know/care to remember his name, Yuga of course, and beside him was the other marketing dude that the first marketing dude was always with on which, I also do not know/care to know his name, and lastly, Sir Chris, who once sat in front of my team leader. Well, frankly, aside from Yuga, he's the only guy I know and I'm being serious. Please also excuse me for not knowing their names. I have nothing to do with them, therefore I think, it is unnecessary to know their names since their existence is in the least of importance to me.

After that day, the controversial issue of Yuga's endorsement faded until this morning when one of our senior programmers gave me this link he found else where on the Net. It's pretty embarrassing, but hey, the guy has a point and reading it really made my day. Whoever wrote that, I love you and thank you for the good laugh. I even finished up 75% of the page I was currently coding due to the inspiration. Heh. Anyway, people, go read that.

Also, my current Anti Hardcore Yaoi sickness is slowly being cured. I guess I just needed to read one with more plot. To those following Nauto (manga), the latest chapter is also out. Go grab it. That's thanks to the power of RSS feeds from Baka Updates. RSS Rules! *lol*