The stage is too big.
The spotlight, too bright.
I looked around the audience,
But I couldn't find you.
You were running,
Like you'll need to catch that last train.
You were shivering,
As if being cornered by a hungry wolf.
I closed my eyes
And breathed in deeply.
I thought of you
And I started to sing.
Do you hear me there
Wherever you have run off to?
Can you sense my voice trembling?
Can you hear my heart crying?
Like the sun and moon,
We both share the same light.
But you could shine on your own,
And I could only borrow your strength.
Like the sun and moon,
We both serve the world.
But people only loved your warmth,
And I could only reflect their sorrow.
Like the sun and moon,
We both rise and fall.
Though it would be only for a while,
I couldn't help but love your shine.
Like the sun and moon,
We're each at both ends of the world.
I could only glimpse at you from far apart.
And I know, we can never really touch.
Countless thoughts, whispered.
Endless tears, drowned in sorrow,
Washed away by rain.
Before this borrowed light from the sun
Completely fades away
Let me put my pain into writing
And my sadness to tears
Before the cold empty darkness
Completely consumes me
Let my heart sing songs
As silence turns them to screams
When tomorrow breaks another day
And the scars of yesterday heals
This faded notebook will keep the memories
As its pages would prove the tears
Here I stand at top of a 7 floor building.
I stare at the wide street below.
It was lifeless and dirty.
It was bare and empty.
Here I stand in front of a 7 floor building.
I stare and look up to the top.
I was blinded by the light,
Yet the shadow protects me from the sun.
We saw each other.
Eye to eye,
Our stare met each other.
Our time stopped.
And our world turned black and white.
Together, we reached out.
From what it seems like heaven,
Suddenly, you sang a sad song.
It reached my heart,
As my eyes starts to get blurry.
I saw you innocently stare from below,
Looking up as if I was God.
You try hard to stand though you're shaking.
Suddenly, you fell in the pool of your own blood.
We saw each other.
Heart to heart.
We stared at each other.
Our shadows collided.
Our world faded from black and white.
Together, our thoughts reached out.
Sometimes,
Too much love is painful.
As I remember you,
I grow sadder.
I cannot forget your smiles.
I cannot forget your words.
The more I try not to think about it,
The more the memories pulls me back.
The more I try to forget,
The more painful it becomes.
I do not know where to start.
I do not know if it'll ever end.
I just want the world to stop,
And just let time continue moving.
The silhouette of your shadow,
I remember so clearly
Like it was real, so full of life.
But whenever I try touch it,
It quickly fades away
As if it was running from me.
Grief is eating me away
Little by little,
One piece at a time.
I'm tangled and trapped
In my own delusions
That I could see you again
When I wake up.
But all that's left in me
Is the shadow of your memories
That I try hard to hold on to.
I feel like running away.
I wanna run where the clouds meets the sky,
Where the breeze is cold
And warm at the same time.
But I do not know which way to go
Or to which side I should run to.
There came a point
When I do not even care about all that.
I just want to run as far as my legs can take me
And scream as loud as my voice leave me.
I simply just want to run.
Run away from the world
Run away from life
Run away from myself
Run away from the pain
And the shadows of your memories.
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