Hello blog,
It’s been a while. I know I have neglected you for so long. It’s not that I’ve forgotten about you. It’s more like, I ran out of things to say.
It’s more than that, actually. In truth, I have a lot of things to say. A lot of things pop into my mind. But I just don’t know where to start or how I should express them. I think of how, but then after a while, I would just give up on the idea and let things pass me by slowly.
Lately, I feel like drifting in a endless space – no where to go, no where to run. I don’t even have the energy to think of where to go, or where to run, or what to do.
I think happy thoughts and look at happy things and do things that I used to love, but somehow, they are not the same. Yes, they make me happy, but the happiness is temporary. As soon as the book ends, I’m sad again. As soon as the music ends, I feel empty again. The things that I used to love don’t give me the same satisfaction, happiness, and fulfillment as they did before. Like how I used to be able to watch seasons after seasons of TV series, but now, after 2 or 3 episodes, I get bored with it. Although I still watch them until the end, but I finish them not because I find them fun to watch, but more like out of obligation to myself that I have to finish everything that I started.
I do not know what’s wrong with me, I just feel so… I feel nothing, I have no opinion of anything, and I don’t even think I want to do anything or even care about other people. I just want to lock myself away in my room and stare at the ceiling for hours and hours, thinking nothing.
I don’t think I’m regressing back to being a shut-in. I think I’m regressing back to being a slowpoke or a stone or something.
4 Comments
You’re going through a plateau stage. I have these alot. Don’t worry it soon passes and you forget all about it until it comes back.
Don’t beat yourself up for being a slowpoke or a stone or however you call it. I think many people go through this phase. So have I. and that shall pass. It’s okay to take a break from your regular routine or the things you used to find much interest in. Like in blogging, my experience was I would take a break for days or weeks and write whenever I feel doing so because it did become an obligation. Now I enjoy blogging again because I write for myself and whoever is possibily interested. Hehe~ So, yeah, take a break and see where that goes. 🙂 *hugs*
I think I know how you feel. There’s a lot of things I want to write about, but I can’t finish them. My drafted posts are piling up then the moment has passed and I wonder of I should even bother posting them. We’re in a slump. It happens. Take a break. If you need to shut yourself in, do it. Maybe you need a little quiet time with your thoughts. The world is fast paced now. I can’t believe it’s March already. Assess your life and find something you’re passionate about. Disregard what used to make you happy. Maybe that’s not for you anymore. Pick up a new hobby. Learn a new skill. As for me, I’m back to serving God and taking it seriously. I actually feel better than I used to. I also deactivated my FB because it’s a big distraction. Now I can do anything I want without feeling the need to see what’s going on on FB. It may sound stupid, but it’s helping me. ☺
Feel better my friend. Oh. When you shut yourself in, don’t stay there for long. Just take a break and come back to the land of the living. Cheer up. ????