I thought we had it all,
I thought everything was fine.
But then you called that night
And said that you would leave.

As if my heart would break
Of the pain I was feeling.
As if my world would drown
Of the tears I was shedding.

I face the world with a smile everyday
Just to hide all the pain inside.
But when it’s night and cold,
I started to shed tears again.

On and on for months I cried
Trying to rid myself of the pain.
Hoping that somehow it would ease,
Hoping somehow it would just leave.

I had cried to my very last tear,
I shed them all to forget you.
But still the pain never left me
And my wound never healed.


Letting Go…

All of us had gone, will be going, or is going through a life of great change, a life of great acceptance, a life of great pain, a life full of doubts, a life full of confusions – a teen age life. Always, whenever we cross this road, we meet a lot of people and lose a lot too. Some of them, we just came to meet along the road and leave us just like that. But for some, they became a great part of our lives. But we can never say that these people would always be with us. Sometimes we must also learn how to let go.

Sometimes, when we really want something so bad, we always thought that everything’s okay, everything’s going as we want it to be. But sooner or later, with a blink of an eye, we’ll just realize it was gone. And no matter what we do, no matter how hard we try, it will never come back to the way it used to be. And after that we’ll decide of letting go.

Letting go of someone isn’t that easy. Whenever we let someone go, we always hold back because that person means so much to us. Even if it means hurting ourselves, we still keep our eyes peeled just to keep that person beside us. After we’ve let go, we always hope that that person would come back. But sometimes, we have to accept the fact that that person would never come back and wont be the same person that we once knew. We just have to give that person up for us to grow and for us to realize that somebody out there needs that someone more that we do.

Even though life is cruel at times, we still need to wipe our tears dry, face the new world without that someone beside and get up every time we fall and know that that person wont always be there to catch us whenever we fall. Through this, we learn and become much stronger than we were before.

An article for Literature class.



I despise you Silence.
Know why?
Because you keep on reminding me
Of the things I wanted to forget.
His touch, his sent,
His smile, his glance.

I wanted to forget him so bad.
I wanted to stop myself from shedding tears again.
I wanted to stop myself from calling out his name.
I wanted to leave it all behind me.
As I keep on denying myself
How I need him so badly.

Whenever you’re around,
I always hear only my teardrop falling.
Whenever you’re near,
You keep whispering his words –
Those that made my heart beat fast
And those that made it sad and cry.

Even in my dreams as I sleep
You still whisper his name to my ear.
You keep repeating what he did –
How he made my world so bright
And also took with him that light.
As I again weep here in this dark room
Without anyone but you alone.


I’m an Atheist

I’m now a self-declared Atheist or so, I just lost the faith.

I know that this might be a great factor that I could never have him back. But this time, I wanted to be true to myself and what I believe. Until I could cope up with things, I will stop from blogging.